Peace of mind
The focus of this wellness retreat has been my NEED to get my mind back on track. Over the past few years I felt myself struggling hard to maintain my standards… for everything. Who ever said your environment can really shake your foundations NEVER LIED! I was taught from a very young age to have a personal standard (whatever that is) and maintain it (not impose it on others).
As life crowded in though, I found myself wondering if my right was wrong? Should I just suffer that disrespect? Should I forget about being generous because I don’t feel like I get anything in return from that person? How much should I adapt to “get along”, when the adaptation just feels wrong? I’ve been comfortably uncomfortable with not fitting. There have always been physical, spiritual, social, moral, experiential, economic, cultural, familial differences (that we all have) that make me feel (gratefully) unique.
The trick though I’ve found, is to feel those things and not try to flatten myself out (or compromise myself into oblivion) to “fit” better.
Through the years, professional counseling has really helped me with that. While here at Eden Valley Institute of Wellness, there have been a lot of counseling sessions, both in group and individually. As the days have gone on, the words of encouragement and advice have really spoken into my life in a profound way. The questions my designated counselor, Brenda, asks me has helped reframe the way I’m thinking and praying about things that pull at my mind.
Detoxing has been not only good for my body but my mind. I sleep better (so much better) than when I arrived, and dare I say it, I don’t look like I’ve been hit by a fast moving car. I think I look calm behind the eyes and my mind is more orderly.
I realize that I am in a position of extreme privilege to be able to take time and money to invest in this kind of retreat. But when I first started professional counseling, almost 8 years ago, I was flat broke and paying $30 per session (which was a tremendous sacrifice) to get the help I needed to move forward from some personal pain and what’s more navigate a life that was in keeping with my values and standards. I encourage you to consider it if you’re able. There are counselors at every price point, and many times you can receive counseling at your local house of worship if you would like to inject a spiritual component to your mental wellness.
As the sun just barely rises over the mountains this crisp September morning, I can say for this moment, (and I’m so grateful for this very moment) I have peace of mind.
Have you considered counseling ? What are you doing to maintain or build your values and standards? Please share in the comment box below.